I’m Amanda. I go by Mandy. I grew up in a fundamental baptist church. My dad was a deacon. My mom taught Sunday school. I believed in conservitive dress. I only wear dresses or skirts. I wear dreses or skirts that go bellow the knee. I never watched a second of television or commercial radio. I avoided pop culture all together.
I was home schooled. I was a bit sheltered. I was fine with that. I did not mind being sheltered. I think that it was a good thing.
I was not boy crazy in my pre teen or teen years. I never realy went though that phase in my teen years. There were several young men in my church. I was friendly with them but i did not even think of them as a potential romantic interest. My parents did not want me to date before i graduated high school but that was fine with me.
I went to a fundamental baptist college. I traned in a general bible study. I was traning so i could be a pastors wife or to serve in some kind of ladies ministry in a local church. I wanted to be maried but did not go all out to find a husbend.
I dont know why but i was elected freshman class secretary and met jr class president Joseph. Joseph and i worked close together on the student concil. We became friends. We saw each other at a christian camp that sumner. We got closer.
He was elected sr class president the following year. She was once again elected class secretary. They continued to grow closer. Midway into the school year,they decided to date. He got her dad’s permission to formerly court her.
After he graduated, he worked at his home church. He interned with the pastor. He was traning for the ministry. The sumner before her senior year he perposed and she accepted.
She had a secret. She had an usual fascination. She had an odd fetish. She liked to fantasize about being rapped. She did tell any one about this. She kept it a closely guarded secret.
A few back her colege roommate anna told her that she had been raped. She had a nightmere. She screamed in her sleep. It woke her up.Mandy ran to her. She hugged her and she comforted her.
“I had a nightmere. ” she admited. She calmed her. Amanda got her to tell her about it. ” one day i came home. A rapist was waiting for me. He forced me to the bed. He ripped off ny underwear. He unzipped his pants and forced his thing into me.” anna said.
Amanda felt weird. She had no idea what was going on. She did not realize that she was beccoming horney. She was getting turned on . She did not know that. That did not occur to her. She was not aware if that. She was unfamiler with fetism.
That night she was in her bed. Anna’s mind recalled what Anna had described. She replayed the story in her head. It continued to go though her brain.
As she replayed it.she pulled up her pink nightie and took her hand into her panties. She placed her fingers into her vaginal area. She pleasured herself.
She had no idea what masturbation was. She was unfamiler with the sin of onen. She did not know that Some christians believed that the sin of onen involved masturbation. She did not. Know any of this.
She did feel bad about getting pleasure from her friend’s trauma. While she tried to stop it. It continued to come into her mind.
When she and her future husband got engaged, she started imagining him rapping her. He would be violtent as he picked her up and pinned her on the bed. He would riped her skirt and underware. He was vicious and violent. The real Joseph was the poller oposite. He was gentle and reserved.
They were a maried a couple of mounths after she graduated from college. They knew eachother shortly after the wedding was concluded. She liked it but felt slughtly unfulfilled.
She did not say it but he had a strong suspicion that that was the case. Despite his attempts to alter it, it did not seem to help. He did not know what to do.
One day during sex she told him to hold down her arms. He was sceptical. She insisted. He did. She had him hold her down and restrain him.
He did. She resisted and incised he fight it and subdue her. The sex got better the more controling he was. Eventually during a particuler forceful encounter on his part, she got pregnent.
He was not sure how he felt about her getting horney by being ravished by him. She incisted on consensual nin consent. He tried to go back to vanilla sex but she would not have it. She liked to be dominated in bed.
She gave birth to a healthy baby boy. Then when there son was weaned, during a mock rape, he impregnated her again. This time she had a girl.
He got a little more comfortable with it. He was stil not a big fan of it. He worked to change her kind. That attempt was not sucesfull. He slowly got more uae to it. He eventualy got comfortable with it. He came to embrace it.
By the birth of there third child anorher daughter he had fully embeaced it. They did not tel anyone about this..it was only. Between them.that was how they wanted it. It worked for them.
This is a work of fiction and fantasy.
This story is not endorsing rape or rape fantasy.
Pyschologial studies have revealed that there ate women who have rape fantisies.